The Day I Stopped Being Afraid


I’ve been a worrier for as long as I can remember. Being controlled by my fears has been my biggest struggle for my entire life. When I was younger I was scared of the dark, scared of monsters under my bed, pretty normal kid stuff. As I’ve gotten older, I’m not scared of things going bump in the night, but of things my troubled heart has deemed worthy of fear: car and plane accidents, illness, the loss of loved ones, strangers with bad intentions, you name it. Now that I’m a mother, my fears are heightened and centered on my children. I fear for them in so many ways: I worry about the world they will grow up in, their spiritual futures, their health, that they might be bullied, that they might not feel loved or accepted in all the ways they need, everything. I worry about unspeakable things that might happen because of the sinful nature of man.

The unexpected loss of my husband’s baby sister Erin in the summer of 2014 made the worst, unspoken fears of an entire family a reality. For seven weeks she was missing. For seven weeks we called out to God. We prayed that he would protect her wherever she was. We prayed that he would bring her home to us. We prayed without ceasing that our greatest fears weren’t true. Eventually, we prayed He would lead the police and search and rescue teams to her. And He did. Erin’s body was found 7 weeks after she went missing in an abandoned mine shaft in the middle of the desert.

After Erin was found, the fear in my (very pregnant) Mommy heart grew exponentially. Evil in the world wasn’t hypothetical anymore. It was tangible and had a face and we were broken by it. For the next 10 months, I walked about in constant fear. I could barely stand being separated from my husband or our children because the anxiety of what might happen to them while I wasn’t there was unbearable. In my heart, we weren’t safe anymore. We had been personally touched by evil and there was no guarantee of our safety.

Being this afraid all of the time is absolutely exhausting in every sense of the word. My body was in constant pain. And so was my heart. I was continuously praying for my fears to go away. Praying for God to speak to me and promise me that our family would be safe; Praying that He would prove to me that our family’s threshold for loss was filled and that we wouldn’t be put through anything further; Praying that I would find something in my Bible, in a devotional, or in church that would speak to my soul and assure me that there was nothing to be afraid of.

I received a daily devotional in my inbox last May that spoke truth into my anxious heart. The Bible Study spoke about remembering God’s truths throughout your day. A lightbulb in my head finally turned on. That seems so simple. The Bible says God loves us.  The Bible says He wants what is best for us. The Bible Says He didn’t create us to live in fear.

Unfortunately, as humans, believing that God loves us and being strong enough to say no to fear when it comes calling are separate things.

One of my favorite people ever reminded me recently that fear is not from God. He doesn’t work that way. WOW! She knows the truth. And she spoke it to me just when I needed to hear it. We must be absolutely adamant in our rejection of the devil controlling our hearts and minds with fear.  The best way I’ve found to force these thoughts out of my heart has been to memorize and recite some of my favorite bible verses when these fearful thoughts begin.

Isaiah 41:10

So do not fear, for I am with you;
    do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
    I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

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Exodus 14:13-14

“Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. 14 The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.”

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2 Timothy 1:7

For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline. 

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Joshua 1:9

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.

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Isaiah 43:1

Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
    I have summoned you by name; you are mine.


Deuteronomy 31:8

The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.


John 14:27

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

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This one isn’t a verse but its truth is worth remembering

Not everything in this life has a happy ending… but this life is not the end of the story.


I hope these will help someone else like they have helped me. What are your favorite bible verses to drive away fear?




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